and a year later..

wow looking back this time last year I was so excited and ready for surgery. This year I am still excited and so glad I did it~! I am 177 pounds down but still have a long way to go. I have hit somewhat of a stall again and I believe it's time for some public accountability! I haven't done a you tube video in quite a while so that will come soon. I am also going to start posting my daily food intake for those who may wish to be bored senseless :) It might help me to stop and think hmm do I really wanna publish on the blog that I ate that? I will give myself a days grace as I havent really kept track today as I should and starting tommorrow, at some point during the day I will post what I have consumed. I did make the jump to soy milk today for my shakes. I will say I am not a soy fan in particular, I don't think I could bring myself to drink a glass of the stuff on its own but when I make it into my favorite shake its not bad. The stats are much more wls friendly than any type of regular milk or doing my fav way of water then adding a healthy dose of cream.
my current favorite shake

1 scoop click mocha
1 scoop nectar chocolate truffle
10 oz soy milk
aprox 2 tablespoons sf torani caramel syrup
a pinch or so of salt ( I use on of the lil to go packets at work)

I shake all that up really good in my blender bottle then heat it in a big mug, I prefer this one hot. It is delish.
I'm gonna go strain my brain with some more math review, hope this post finds my one whole follower doing well and maybe I will collect a few more along the way.

approved!

Well yes I am again slacking at the blog but I'm doing better than last year. I got word that as of january 29th my RNY surgery has been approved by insurance. I am now very impatiently going through the last weight I have to lose. As of last thursday I am down to 16 pounds to lose. Once that is done I will get a surgery date and start the 2 week liquid diet.

I do not look forward to the two weeks of straight liquid before surgery but it must be done so I will get it done. Right now I am doing 1-2 shakes a day and 1-2 meals a day, depending on the day and the hunger level. I did find a protein powder that I can not only tolerate but actually enjoy. Max protein, chocolate ( in my morning coffee) and cookies and cream. The cookies and cream is awesome but is a bit too sweet for normal use but is great occasionally, the stuff is like drinking a candy bar.

Right now I am getting through my days with impatience, trying not to weigh too often and just stick to my routines. I am SO impatient to get the surgery scheduled and over and get to the losing side.

new type of journey to begin.

Well I did not do so well with keeping up this blog last year. I just read back to the posts I did do and I have continued to try. A few bumps in the road but I am determined. I did make a decision over the course of last summer and started acting on it in the fall. I will have gastric bypass surgery soon. I have gone through all the testing required and sleep studies and doc followed weight loss attempts that the insurance company requires. Things are awaiting insurance approval now and I am impatiently waiting this. I still have to lose the rest of the 50 pounds that the surgeon requires of me before surgery but I have made a good dent in that. I got derailed a bit with a death in my family and the holidays but I am back on track. I will post the ugly truth once I go to weigh again, no secrets here. Food journal for the day will be posted later. Happy Monday!

I finally got through a day with under 20 carbs, I need to tweak things and get it even lower. Lunch was more than I would have liked because I went to work cafeteria instead of packing lunch, I will have one more day of this simply because I am pooped tonight and I'm avoiding going back to the kitchen lol. Here it is...lunch looks like alot more written out than it looked like in that tiny container today. I was starved at dinner and then ended up way over eating, I should have done maybe 2 eggs and half the pork I fixed. I only ate half the lil can of that and my dd finished it off but I did piggy down all 4 of those eggs fried in coconut oil, here is what today looked like.

breakfast from work cafeteria
2 scrambled eggs .78 g
6 strips bacon .432
half cup coffee with hwc and splenda aprox 3g
cherry coke zero
4.212 g
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lunch from work cafeteria

hamburger patty 0 g
slice american cheese 1g
2 tomato slices 1.6 g
2 thin slices onion 1.7
1 large lettuce leaf .45
3 slices bacon .21g
2 tbl ranch dressing 2g
cherry coke zero
3 celery sticks .36g
1/2 ounce peanutbutter 2.8
10.12g lunch total
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dinner
4eggs fried in coconut oil 1.56 g
canned pork 0g
1/4 cup cheese 1.4
hw cream for coffee 2g
2 cups coffee .22
4.78g total for dinner
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todays totals
19.512 g carbs

play time is over

This has been an awesome lazy four days off.
I'm still hanging in with my eating plan, working to get my carbs back down to 20. I am making myself more aware of hidden carbs in things and have started running everything through fit day and keeping a journal again. I DONT want to do that permanently as it gets tedious but for now I need to be more aware. I don't mind repetition so my plan is to get a good list of meals and a good accurate count on them and then just rotate them.

I have so enjoyed this last few days off work. I didn't get as much done around home as I wanted but It has been very relaxing with no place to rush off to and just being at home. I don't get that nearly enough. Today I'm planning lunches and dinners and doing my laundry. Preparing myself for getting back into the swing of work tommorrow. I made mistake of peaking at my work email and then just closed it down. I have like 500 emails to wade through when I get back, ugh.

No breakfast this morning, just coffee as I snuggled in bed and finished my book. Lunch was sliced nathans hotdogs and about 1/2 cup sour kraut and 2 scrambled eggs. I know it sounds an odd combination but it was very good. I did have 2 cups of coffee so far today and with the splenda hwc it is hurting the total but help is on the way! I placed my netrition order and have some fiberfit on the way, hoping I can replace the splenda packets with that for the morning java.
Dinner tonight will be stir fried steak and veggies and probably rice as a side for the rest of the family. I will make some eggdrop soup if I need something more to go with it. Love that stuff.

Sleep!

I'm on day two of a much needed four day stretch off from work. I have split days off normally and we have been extremely busy so this was a mental break more than anything. I have a list of things that needed to get done today and its still hanging next to my desk taunting me but I don't feel guilty. What I did do was.. sleep in, cruise the lc forums go out to lunch with my daughter then take a nap. It felt wonderful.

This afternoon Jerry and I went and filed the taxes. I'm glad to get it out of the way before the big rush at the tax office that is coming as more folks get those w2's in the mail. I made simple dinner of scrambled eggs with cheese, sourcream and salsa and we had beef lil smokies. Lunch earlier was a baconator minus bun/ketchup and a side salad. Snacks for the day so far 2 cream cheese muffins and a slim jim that pretty much took the place of breakfast because I slept so late. I am having coffee now, will probably have one more and this is something I LOVE but I need to really evalute what it does to my plan. I'm calculating about 4 carbs per cup because I like it really sweet and with cream. 8 carbs for 2 cups is spendy when my goal is 20. I tried the stevia but didn't like it in my coffee, I'm gonna have a hard time giving up my splenda...wonder what fiberfit would be like in there?? I'm gonna have to order a bottle soon and check it out. I wish there was someplace to buy it locally.
Gonna watch a movie tonight I think and maybe fold some laundry so I can say I got SOMETHING accomplished today.

yummy and low carb from a can!

I was shopping with my family today and as always was on the look-out for something new and yummy to keep me on track and from boredom, and look what I found in my fav mexican food section of the store!



and after I doctored it up with some sharp shredded cheddar, salsa and sour cream...



yumminess in a bowl all for roughly 3g of carb. I think I have found a new lunch for a while. This is just seasoned shredded pork, I was afraid to look when I opened the can but for 1.19 it was worth a try, worst case scenario the critters would have gotten a treat but it was great.

Well here I go again, my umpteenth try at doing low carb and getting my life back. I have made it through the 1st 25 days of this year and stuck to plan, they say 20 days to make a habit so maybe I can last the rest of the 340 days left of the year and get this thing going in the right direction!

I had some success with this a few years back and lost 70 pounds but I let things slide gradually back to the point where I was just eating whatever I wanted again and gained it all back plus some. I gave a few more half hearted attempts but have not been as successful. I am to a point in my life where I feel it is truly a “ do or die” situation. I don’t want weight loss surgery though I truly support anyone who makes that decision, I have some friends who have had good success, my hubby and I just were not feeling it was right for me after we attended the seminar together.

I have a bad habit of starting out all gung-ho and then sliding away, I have watched many come and go to this woe and do the same thing. I don’t want to be that person anymore. I am 37 years old, morbidly obese and I feel probably 20 years older than that with my constant aches and pains and difficulty in moving around. I want to be around to see my girls as mothers and to enjoy my grandchildren when that time comes. So, in comes the blog. If I remain a lurker with a little post here and there it makes it easy for me to slip away, I want to make myself accountable here and get through my thick skull that this is it for me, at my age with my health if I don’t do something now I am throwing a good deal of my life away.

For the plan…I did induction for 2 weeks, pretty clean except the water, I truly struggle with that. I love my diet dew and cherrycoke zero. I drive about 75 miles round trip each day to work and add to that I am a night owl who tends to stay up way too late..I won’t be giving up my quick caffeine fixes soon so I need to work with that. I am doing low carb as I can but am not religiously counting carbs, I try to stick to simple things that I know are good like meat and eggs but also throwing in enough recipes and things so I don’t get too bored. I try to plug things into fit day if something looks iffy. Yesterday was around 30 carbs and today close to the same and that’s more than I like to do but I know this needs to be forever so I’m trying to find some balance I can live with on a permanent basis.

I weigh “something” over 400. I won’t be shy about posting the number once I know it but my 440 scale won’t weigh me now so I know the number has gotten ugly and why I feel I am at a “do or die” place in my life. I joined a challenge on popular low-carb forum that I frequent for losing 100 pounds this year, I will do that or die tryin! Enough of spilling my guts for this first time out, I will ramble more later and try to post my menus as I go, please feel free to critique/suggest or even flat out telling me if I’m doing something stupid!! I need all the help I can get and I’m a blunt type of person just tell me straight out if I’m being a moron, I can take it.